"You must take that thought out of your mind".
But how could I while being in this miserable condition. The situation could not become far worse. I kept on counting the number of idlis I gulped in my mind to fall asleep, but I just could not have a decent sleep. I remained in a transient state of sleeping, counting and of course feeling pain.
I have always thought I could handle pain, but this time it's different. I was hurt, from deep within.
People say, "I can understand your pain". Does that help the one who is experiencing the pain. In my case, such words do not bring comfort. I tried distractions like music, movies and even social networking. The emotionally happy and emoticon-ally happy moods from the distractions were of no help.
Friends are a wonderful support for bad times but this time the pain did not let me speak. A friend who was in a similar situation suggested I visit a doctor urgently.
Mentally I was exhausted trying to keep the thought of pain at bay, I was reluctant but then avoiding the doctor would certainly drive me nuts !
"So, how did it all started?"
"Hmmm, I see. Big problem but don't worry."
I was already hallucinating; pushed onto a chair with equipments all around and a light blinding me to the state of obscurity to actually make out people with white coats surrounding me.
After the initial diagnosis, I was sitting on the dentist chair. I was having a tooth extracted and a RCT done.
Ogden Nash was right in "This is going to hurt just a little bit":
Because some tortures are physical and some are mental,But the one that is both is dental.
Though I would also like to add that it is an economical torture as well !!
It took me over a month for the entire process of extraction, healing and RCT to actually get rid of the pain.
Pain is sometimes needed, it reminds you to be careful as well as caring.
Waiting impatiently to bite into a whole lot of food stuffs rather than licking ice-creams from tomorrow.